urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mrjazzyKen's journalKen's journalKen's journal2038-01-19T03:14:07Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mrjazzy:223043update2038-01-19T03:14:07Z2038-01-19T03:14:07Z<p>Ive been awake for the past 39 hours. I was at the baja shop for a good 33 of them straight. its been crazy. My internal clock is so messed up, its kinda funny. <br /><br />I have so much to do before I go home thursday. Baja, shopping, baja, Rachel, baja, Rachel, baja, home. with random stuff inbetween.<br /><br /><br />Went to ann arbor for a about 3 days there. it was really nice. spent most of my time just hanging with Rachel, it was really nice. she is so good to me, I just wish I could be good enough back. sometimes I just feel like I wont ever be able to feel for someone like that again. Im trying, but I just cant do it yet.<br /><br />I duno. Im trying to be good. this Christmas season will be a big test of weather I can do it or not. we will see, the last thing I ever would want to do is hurt Rachel, and Im scared Im going to.<br /><br />whatever, just need to figure some stuff out in my head. I will get it eventually. Well I hope to see you all in a couple days. drop me a line and we can do something over break.<br /><br />Ok, Ive been up too long. time for sleep.</p>