urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mrjazzy Ken's journal Ken's journal 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mrjazzy:221897 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z Im starting to think my adviser is right, maybe it is impossible for me to become an engineer.&nbsp; I dont know if I can do this.&nbsp; I keep trying to tell myself that I can do anything, but I believe it less and less with each failure.&nbsp; Maybe Im really not cut out for this college.<br /><br />This has been the worst year of my life, and yet I shouldnt be complaining becuase I have it better than so many.&nbsp; I hate feeling horrible, and then feeling horrible about feeling horrible.<br /><br />Am I greedy asking for something to just work?&nbsp; I even think things are trying to go well and my mind wont let them.&nbsp; I have Rachel, she is simply amazing.&nbsp; So why am I such an idiot?&nbsp; I miss her.&nbsp; I've missed her every day.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br />I think I still have a lot of gowing up to do.<br /><br />20 years old and Im going no where but circles.